I’m looking out the windows on the first floor of Mills Hall. The sun has set, but I can still see the trees by a clear but dim daylight, or at least I could until the fog rolled in just now. Anyway, it just hit me how eerie that daylight without the sun is. I look outside and everything looks like it’s just dark and stormy, but there’s no sun behind those clouds.
I’ve had a strange week. I turned in my SIP on Wednesday, and everything was gloriously happy until Wednesday night when I realized my SIP was over. The climax of my college career had come and gone. Everything suddenly felt rather anticlimactic. I feel like everything is slipping away so suddenly and it's all rather surreal. I hate it when the transience of the life I know becomes so apparent to me. The last time I remember feeling this way was when my family moved away from Italy, where we had lived for seven years. Then at least I had a secure life to look forward to.
Well, I have one more paper to write before going off into the insecure world. A paper on Sir Gawain and the Green Knight that should have a thesis because I've written four pages, but I guess I just haven't gotten to that yet. I feel like my SIP has spoiled me for normal papers. It's so great to have two semesters to research and write a simple twenty-pager.
Oh, and happy St. George's Day and Shakespeare's Birthday.
Posted by linnea at April 23, 2005 8:58 PM | TrackBackAhhhh
Well at least you have a little brother who loves you.
What are your postgraduate plans? Rumor has it they are in the NE...I am going to be close by, if your plans do happen to bring you that way...
Posted by: funkefreak at April 24, 2005 3:46 AMShould we be expecting a move to Bostonblogs on your part in the near future? It has a nice look...
You know what I hate comments? I always feel like I have to end my comment in an ellipsis, because failure to do so constitutes an admission that I actually have very little so say.
Posted by: Eb at May 7, 2005 3:53 PM